i do this thing

where I have really awesome people walk into my life who are nice to me and care about me and wanna know what I want and they meld it in nicely with what they want, but they’re so easy and nice and take so little work to maintain a relationship with that I find myself… forgetting?! to pay attention to them because I have all these shitty people in my face on a daily basis tearing off little pieces of me and it hurts and they’re hard to ignore, so they end up getting all my attention and energy when the ones who deserve the attention aren’t getting it and I’m just here like